I have always known and accepted Jesus as my savior. However, I have never been to a church with such a real emphasis on transparency. The fact that this authenticity exists with True Life has prompted me to work more towards getting closer to knowing Jesus Christ. I did want to reach out a bit and say a few things on New year's but my circumstances have been a bit of a "Lifetime'" movie so I could not pinpoint it down to one thing. The things coming to fruition surrounding my time growing closer to Jesus with TrueLife as the catalyst are the following:

1. This November: My son David was on visit to Boston Specialty Hospital for his bi-annual check-up when we were presented with the idea of a cure for his condition.  When I was told by the doctor that it was a cure for David's Q188R Galactosemia, which is a chronic metabolic disorder with a myriad of life threatening complications I burst into tears. We were then asked to sign and commit to intake, further testing and eventual clinical trials on separate visits to Boston, which we did fly back and forth for a few times. We were exhausted. When I had time to rest I prayed for several hours and was given the intelligence from the Holy Spirit to decipher the fiscal agenda behind the albeit medical advancements as well. With all do respect to medical pharmaceuticals and with my career as a RN being a calling to me, I was at a crossroads.  I turned to people I trusted in the church and they really listened to me and encouraged me about the Holy Spirit. Ultimately it was revealed to me in great detail by the Holy Spirit how the synthetic aldose reductase enzyme inhibitor would cause further liver damage and potential death. Upon further investigation through the strength of the Holy Spirit I actually found out I was given half truths about the number of trials prior to this one that David was asked to be in, whereby individuals had died from liver failure.  Finally, it came to light through His omniscience that the drug being tested was not going to help galactosemics at all. I cannot go into detail on how I know this but after conferring with other Science nerds I know here in True Life, I was able to say no to the testing. It felt like the rug had been pulled out from underneath me and I was shocked at how fast all of this happened, how we could of made a grave mistake and how the real healing of an individual is growing closer to Jesus. This is now what is happening to David and I.  

2. This December: Six years ago I was in a severe DV relationship that was extremely challenging to leave.  God gave me the strength to leave my abuser through another person, knowing that I was weak in the flesh. I prayed as I worked through physical and emotional trauma with my ex-fiance.  I was shaken so badly the day that he held a box cutter to my face vowing to kill me and then threw a cinder block through the windshield of my car, and ripped off both side mirrors and the license plates.  To top it off he left a "love letter" to me on the driver's seat amidst the broken glass. I was in such shock. I just could not wrap my head around how someone could do this to a mother. All I could do was shake.  I had no alimony and no child support. David was still below 18 so my work as a nurse was like fifty dollars too much for him to receive social security. I did not have the time nor the strength to get the restraining order.  That is when God put a man in my life who I thought was there just for fun and games. I was wrong. God had my back the whole time. I did trust God but mostly, to tell you the truth, I prayed for love, for someone good who listened to God and obeyed his call. The man God sent to be my eventual husband was here in the US illegally, was an actual hot mess, but I was given sight to see him pray.  I saw sincerity in his heart and that is all I needed to see. After five long years of working on immigration papers without a lawyer, after my full time job as a nurse, and after taking care of David, my husband was granted full permanent residency in the US this December 2019. He did have to spend two and half years in his country separate from me and I am dumbfounded how we had the strength to remain loyal to one another but we did. Geiner is the type of man that provides for me with all his strength so I can stay home more and work less thusly devoting more time to David. I am awe struck at the Omnipotence of God to turn our hot messes into something so sweet and humble that we enjoy.